Trading a Dream into a Plan

For a third-world country citizen who grew up in a poor family, it almost seem impossible to live out a very expensive dream – that is to travel the world. Fear and skepticism consumes the mind of a common woman who dreams to travel the world either solo or with a companion. Finances, security, safety, social status and connections – that’s all I wanted to settle before I set forth to my journey. And I sometimes think, maybe travelling the world are only for the westerners and rich people. I always read in the internet to just go with it. “Just book a ticket and leave”- that’s what they say. But, it can’t always be like that. It needs thorough planning, if not perfect planning, well at least there’s a plan.

I’d like to discuss my pre-travel concerns:

1. Finances

We all know for a fact that every move we make involves money. (Sad reality.) Travelling needs so much money. Pre-travel saving is important. But what if I run out of money on the road? Yes, there are jobs on the road but the thing that I am worried of is prejudice against filipinos. I hope filipinos can get jobs without being discriminated. I also thought what if I can’t get a job no matter how I search for one and I’d be left empty-handed and can’t even go back home 😦

2. Safety

As a woman I have a lot of issues concerning safety. Is the world safe enough to be travelled solo? I should possess some self-defence weapons. I hope none would scam me on the road.

3. Social Status

As what I have previously said, I am a third-world country citizen and I have a lot of esteem issues. I am worried of how the world would treat me as filipina. I still hope the world is a nice place.

4. Connections

Where am I to go when I first set foot on a new city/province/country? I have been dreaming not only to travel but also use my social work profession on the road. I want to spend time helping in churches, orphanages, social community centers and other humanitarian organizations and that is while I’m on the road. That is why I searched the web of organizations that are travelling for world missions. I have come across The World Race and I can say that I can totally see myself doing their program. My soul got excited to apply for their program. But! The perks of being an international applicant and a third-world citizen deterred my excitement. *sigh* I hope there are organizations like this in my country. Maybe I have to do it my own way and find my own connections.

See! I have so much anxieties! I’m paranoid but I still want to make this dream to happen! Help! I am so afraid and I’m still stitching up my plans to fulfil it. Somehow, I have this encouragement saved in my book that says,

“Start now. Start where you are. Start with fear. Start with pain. Start with doubt. Start with hands shaking. Start with voice trembling but start. Start and don’t stop. Start where you are, with what you have. Just… start.”

Huhuhu. Can I just travel the world without thinking of money and anxieties? Can I not think of the difficulties? T.T Let me just travel and show the world that I have so much love in me 🙂

By the way, i’ve heard that when your dream doesn’t scare you, it’s not worth dreaming of.

Twinkle A.

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